the push that makes you move

so im awake, not sleeping, poking around the interweb looking for and digesting new music as i love to do. it like narcotics to me sometimes. lol. anyway i ran across a guy called Chris Holmes and hit play and this song just feel on top of me like a brick fucking wall. umm... just listen...

All the Stars in Heaven by Chris Holmes - chris holmes

if heaven knew the reason
that I'm in the state I'm in
the angels would come calling
just to bring you back home again

if I could tell them why
I feel the way I do
they would come running
just to bring my heart
back to you

but I can't go on pretending
that there'll be a happy ending
and I still want you for my life
but I know it isn't right

and of all the stars in heaven
I saw yours shining bright
and of all my heart's desires
I wished for your love tonight

just trying to find a reason
how I could lose a love so true
just trying to find what happened
to the best thing I ever knew

if I could find a way
you know I'd make it all up to you
cause taking you for granted
is the last thing I wanted to do

but I can't go on pretending
that there'll be a happy ending
and I still want you for my life
but I know it isn't right

and of all the stars in heaven
I saw yours shining bright
and of all my heart's desires
I wished for your love tonight

and of all the stars in heaven
I saw yours shining bright
and of all my heart's desires
I wished for your love tonight