im going off the radar for a week...

so i have to get up at 3:45am tomorrow. to start a week on the crew of HBO's series True Blood. ill be working 15 to 18 hours days so for the next week ill be gone. if im not at work, trust that i am asleep.

see yall on the flip side.

x

just some thoughts

who am i but an animal made mostly of water and carbon
i have a trail of memories that will eventually fade
i have a future with no guaranties in our plant of chaos
and what if i'm not remembered when my time comes to
return to the earth, if i'm not to be remembered
than why should i choose to live the misery that handed to us
i wont be a super movie star. i grow bored of redundant routines.
i'm in love with life and captivated with my abundance of senses
and all the experiences and sensations that life has to provide
as my days continue, i'm slowly loosing faith in my fellow citizens.
and still. i wish to know more. what is the culture here and there and there
i wish and dream and hope to travel far and wide to feel what others believe.
i can't take it all in. its such an expansive collection of societies.
there's always new knowledge that i'm not frightened of.
thou, sadly in the end, what i've learned will be lost
but at least while i am here i know that i am alive, and hopefully, before i go
i might be able to pass on one piece of truth that can better the would of another
so maybe i will be remembered, for a short time. in any case i know, right now
that life is beautiful! if you choose to see it, if you choose it live it.
now that ive seen what was here to be seen i must float on...

Drugs Are Bad!

Click on the picture to see why...

LOST INTERNET!!!!

AND ALMOST MY MIND!!!!

so lets see a quick run down.

had a tooth taken out. its not so bad. i did even take the pain killer they gave me. i don't like opiates anyway... (give me stimulants ;)

lost internet. paid internet. still wont have internet till wendsday. called AT&T and gave them a hard time about me having paid for internet and still not having internet for about 45mins (poor dot-indian asshole was not happy with my wrath)

OH AND...

I HAVEN'T HAD A CIGARETTE IN 48 HOURS!!!!&*%^)(*&^%$#$@£¢™¡∞§¢£¶§•∞ª•¶§#$@!%$#&*^% AND i have not hurt anyone and/or myself yet. (well except maybe the AT&T tech fuck-tards)

ummmm, start work on an HBO pilot tomorrow. **does a money dance**

and im bored

later

modify the movie

this looks rather exciting!

right here right now...

i am sitting by an open window while a sweet breeze of cool air carries in the low rumble of thunder which is making the candle flicker and dance. all is calm and dark and quiet, except my chick singer/song writer music i'm listen to. all is well right here, right now.

A photo depicting an Ani DiFranco song.

bonus points if you can tell me which one?

Biz Card

Spin Jam, Shreveport

Here are a few highlighting pix from Spin Jam. Sarah McDonald's newest brain child. Taking place at Columbia Park, Sheveport, LA. Once a month near the full moon. Its a celebration of food, music, art, performance and friendly neighborhood vibes. Come again. Bring yourself, a snack, a musical instruments, your art work, you dog, your friends, etc...

Your host Sarah McDonald.

whoops! the pix ended up out of order. sorry. auto upload on blogger doesn't seem to work all that well. next time ill do this differently, but for now...

fire spinning by sarah mcdonald

more fire spinning

having a laugh

come on, sing along...

sarah saying "thanks"

kids, having fun with streamers while Tim Marshall with a local drum circle plays in the background.

sarah and i

kerri reading a speach

lighting the fire

OOhh AAhhh!!!

dance like no one is watching!

Song Of The Moment

Judith (Danny Lohner Remix) by A Perfect Circle

So, it's Sunday in der South. What might that mean? It mean 85% of the population gets up, goes to church than goes shopping. I had work this morning so the Milla-Second church is out we receive gross upon gross of gaudy-toted-up-holier-than-thou women followed by their screaming-crying-climbing-whining-demon-spawn children.

oh my me its just horrific!

so my song of the moment is as follows:

LYRICS:

You're such an inspiration for the ways
That I'll never ever choose to be
Oh so many ways for me to show you
How the savior has abandoned you

Your Lord and your christ
He did this
Took all you had and
Left you this way

Still you pray, you never stray
Never taste of the fruit
You never thought to question why

It's not like you killed someone
It's not like you drove
A hateful spear into his side
Praise the one who left you
Broken down and paralyzed

He did it all for you
He did it all for you

Oh so many many ways for me to show you
How your dogma has abandoned you
Pray to your christ, to your god
Never taste of the fruit
Never stray, never break
Never---choke on a lie

Even though he's the one who did this to you
You never thought to question why

Not like you killed someone
It's Not like you drove
A spiteful spear into his side
Talk to jesus christ
As if he knows the reasons why
He did it all for you


FUCK YOUR GOD
Your lord, your christ
He did THIS
Took all you had and
Left you THIS way
Still you prey, never stray
Never taste of the Fruit
You never thought to question way!
FUCK YOUR GOD

FUCK YOUR GOD

Yeah I know, "I'm so harsh!", BUT, my fellow people, It's not that hard or scary to think for yourself. Please, give a try sometime.

As you see i have no problem being blunt here. Don't ask me for my opinion and I wont give it to you. Thou its sad, I can't pick up a dollar bill without being told to believe in something I don't believe exists. So here I carry no shame.

This is my new Sunday Anthem!

A walk down memory lane...

... I just found, deep inside my hard drive, a text file of my older poetry. From an age range of 17ish to 22ish. And .... good god I was fucked. Most of it is crap and crazy dribble. But I did find one that still struck me. I don't remember writing it thou it was toward the bottom of the document so I must of been on the 22-23 side. it was me reflecting on what I just walked away from... I kind like this one...


NEVER LET GO

those were dark days
cold days
and they will always be with me

i will never forget, i will never let go
i will let them haunt me forever
i will let them bring me down always

those were lonely days
sad days
and they will always be close behind me

i will never forget, i will never let go
i will let them scar me forever
i will let them chase me always

those were hard days
long days
and they will always be taunting me

i will never forget, i will never let go
i will let them follow me forever
i will let them beat me down always

those were the days
good days
and they will always be reminding me

i will never forget, i will never let go
i will let them shape from here on

-xxa

Song Of The Moment

Take To The Sky (Russia) by Tori Amos

you can say it one more time
what you don't like
let me hear it one more time then
have a seat while i
take to the sky

On the matter of...

angel vs. fairy

as fucking corny as this sounds im going to explain the screen name change from piercedangelx to piercedfairyx.

somewhere in the back of my crazi mind (planted there by the gothic images of old) is that "angels" are still and quiet beings that sit and wait and cry... not much grander in that image.

"fairys" are from the earth, full of life, energy, vigor and exploration... as well as most fairys are flamers like myself.

ive made this realization and changed my wings. no more heavy feather. just now. light and color wings of dust that have much more live for.

ahahhahaha, yeah i know im nuts. but is all good.

speaking of wings i need to find out when my next tattoo appt is. im getting some more flutterbys tattoo on my arm, saturday, i think.

**LIFE IS FOR THE LIVING! I'LL SLEEP WHEN IM DEAD**

Where We Walk

i don't want to be anyones lover.
i don't even want to be my own.
i have the power of acceptance
which lets me know,
i am ment to be alone.
sad and true.
there doesn't always need to be more.
it's truly this simple if you choose to let
yourself drop your designated expectations.
if there's something you want, reach for it
and remember, we have no control in our
world of chaos.
than, at least realize, at least you've tried.
we wont all make it here.

-XAA

Song Of The Moment

dresden dolls - Sing

There is this thing that's like Fucking except you don't Fuck
Back in the day it just went without saying at all
All the world's history gradually dying of shock
There is this thing it's like talking except you don't talk
You sing
You sing

Sing for the bartender sing for the janitor sing
Sing for the cameras sing for the animals sing
Sing for the children shooting the children sing
Sing for the teachers who told you that you couldn't sing
Just sing

There is thing thing keeping everyone's lungs and lips locked
It is called fear and it's seeing a great renaissance
After the show you can not sing wherever you want
But for now let's just pretend we're all gonna get bombed
So sing

Sing cause its obvious sing for the astronauts sing
Sing for the president sing for the terrorists sing
Sing for the soccer team sing for the janjuweed sing
Sing for the kid with the phone who refuses to sing
Just sing

Life is no cabaret
We don't care what you say
We're inviting you anyway
You motherfuckers you'll sing someday...
You motherfuckers you'll sing someday...
You motherfuckers you'll sing something...

I feel so alive.

I am so in love with life. It is so very beautiful. the dreamers have got it grand.

The sad reality is ...

... you never knew me because you let your immature selfishness get in the way. And now you never will.

Good-Bye.

Don't bother try to comment on this. It will be deleted without being read. You've shown your true colors and I don't want people like you in my life anymore.

Ummm

want to make a post. thou im just kind Blank right now. not the end of the world i guess.

good night.

hahahahahaha

Song Of The Moment

Boy Hits Car - I Am A Cloud

If we fall into ourselves we will become free.

I am so full of love.
I am so full of hate.
I am so full of these feelings
That turn me every which way.

I am so full of you.
I am so full of me.
I am so full of these WORDS
That don't tell YOU a FUCKING thing.

A Poem Of My Own

i do not wish to see, any closer, the stars in the dark
nor the wide rolling vastness of blue waves
nor seas of rippling amber or grey grasses

i care not for open, drifting sands that are dry
as well as the spanning emptiness of white
nor immense tracks of hardened lands

bring me away and up, to the mountains
where the trees gather in groves, tall and broad
where they mingle and share and support
and ever thicker grows the many shades of emeralds and earth
where hight and falling water dance side by each
and there is a heavy comfort in the filtered light and sounds

i wish to meander in that lush thickness of existence
till i gather the impression that it is all boxed
for i perceive my visions to be secure around me
thou i expect to reach a top, look out,
and see how far my dreams may travel
with more peaks and warm light
and cool shadows leaning toward me

Urban Word of the Day

www.urbandictionary.com

April 07, 2008: Spank bank

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Spank+bank&defid=472370

1. A memorable collection of mental images that one wishes to retain for master debational purposes.
2. Porn collection

1."yo, 2 o'clock, see that thong?" "yeah, that's going in the spank bank"

I Love Working For The Movies

This is a check for 3 days. Not a full 5 days. They took over $350 in taxes. You do the math.

I Don't Want To Hear It.

The first time is a mistake.
The second and third and ...,
is just a bad habit.
-pug

Where I've Been...

create your own personalized map of the USA

I don't travel enough!

Faut souffrir pour être belle.

New Music Review

I just order a new cd from www.cdbaby.com.
Said cd being:
Alissa Moreno: In Your Wake

(Click the album title above to go listen.)

This was the review i just posted on the artist page:

instantly addicted!
this album is lush and flowing with all the emotion that female singer/song writers can muster. most all the song deal with lost love. in a great way. shes keeps her subject rather vague which is a great strong point. it leaves it open for a wide range of people to relate to whats shes saying. (ie. this album has me thinking more of my past drug addiction rather than past lovers). her voice is a bit shaky, but, i still like it. it adds a good deal of raw feeling to the lyrics. the music is lush and deep and full. id compare early tori amos with a bit more pop and a faster tempo mixed with the darkness alanis morissette had in her first two u.s.a. releases. its very unique and beautiful. if you like just anyone of the samples. get the cd. it will grow on you. 5 stars.

Who's a good Buster?!

Big mean pit bull is afraid of my camera.

Who me?!?!?!

Don't give your dog crank!


Or he'll run around chasing bugs,
that aren't there.

We like to Party!

NOLA

Happy five years sober Bozz! Here, let me do that bump for ya!