another pic of my fav subject LOL

"the spins"

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i did i photo shoot for a friend of mine and i particularly like this photo.

I NEED YOU TO COMMENT!!!

i need your input. i cannot choose which of these two edits i like better. i need you to comment on which on you like better, Image 1 or Image 2 and your explanation why! PLEASE AND THANK YOU! -X

Note: the lyrics with in the photos are french, the english translation is:

i desire you
the time has come
take me
im your
im guilty

i want to go to the end of my fantasies.
i know it is forbidden.
i am crazy. im letting myself go.
im guilty

Image #1

Image #2

previews of cumming attractations

PiercedFairyX is.... busy spend hour or rather all day sunday afternoon turning his room into a makeshit studio for a self portrait hes photographing tonight whilst shaving, mosienting, doing hair and nails, and make-up etc. hes even (for the first time ever) semi documenting the process. stay tuned!

can you feel it?

this may be a bit intense. i understand if you can't finish watching it or don't "get" it. ;D

For those concerned for my Soul,

Yes it’s obvious I’m fighting the “establishment” here, but let me clear up this cliché of the emo-kid you might be trying to label me as.

Confession: I’m not "anti"-establishment. Clearly, without some sort organization to more than our social system the anarchy that would ensue would do us in. The human condition could not survive without such. THE PROBLEM is the establishment in which we exist is based on old values and practices that are NO LONGER RELEVENT THEREFORE THE SYSTEM DOESN’T WORK! If you have to ask me to provide you with even one piece of evidence to back up this statement, please stop reading now and go kill yourself.

For some reason I cannot fathom, with the immeasurable capability and power the our minds the social pecking order of our existence still remains to be controlled by our infatuations with money, lust, jealously, materialism, discrimination and the "need" to acquire power. The selfishness of the Human Animal is its greatest weakness.

Unfortunately, and this is where my bitterness and angry come into play; the human condition and instinctual strive for capitalism within everyone is far too great on conflict for us to ever resolve. So, what now? With the realization that “Nothing changes except faces!”, what should I be standing for, where should I start to illustrate the changes that could possible make the “life” I’m living a bit more hospitable? With the mammoth structure that has been built to brainwash and control the question of authority, why should I try to state my opinion at all? For when I do, the vast majority of individuals I’m expressing such to blindly try to persuaded me back into the common census. So, again, Why?

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not as negative a person as I may be making myself sound. Most of the time I’m totally fine and content to ostracize myself and to be left alone away from the drove of popular opinion. No skin of my back if I don’t have to play your games. I’m acutely aware of MY human condition and do what I can everyday to make myself okay within myself. I do this of my own accord and also do so without the disfigurement to your stand of such subjects. This is where I love to share the old sentiment “live and let live.” At the point I realize my view on the matter is not something you are going to accept I will leave you alone with it. Being standoffish with the masses is a step in my process I accepting-ly undertake. Don’t take my bitterness as pure hatred, for I do, very much so, enjoy this experience of life and the bountiful sensations and especially the socialization that come along with it, just don’t undermine it because, as you see, I won’t hold back.

So now you must be dizzy with the thoughts of; “Where did this kid’s diatribe just come from?” It’s as simple as I’m just tired. Tired of struggling to get by and exist comfortably, let alone lavishly, (so much for the American dream) tired of not being able to stand on my own and to make ends meet. Take note that none of this blame can be transferred to anybody buy myself. I take full responsibility for my own actions and power. (ie, if I smoked less I could afford better food, but you know, I like smoking so why should I have to settle for less?) and all of this comes full circle when, in my struggling I make a comment or post something here on the interweb and its met with the previously mentioned response of, “Well, why don’t you...” and I’m tired (there’s that word again) of it and its frustrating.

I don’t usually make such long and evolved editorials to express my opinions. I usually just keep my mouth shut and keep moving as I brush your dust off my shoulder but today I’m just particularly aggravated with these states of affairs. Hopefully this has shed some softer light on my image. Hopefully and couple of you will find some truth in proclaimed statement of; “I’m no jaded, I’m just realistic!”

As it is, now that I’m done ranting, I think I’ll take a walk, it’s sunny, warm and I’ll relish it.

eCONomy

a few current affairs:

so i just did my taxes so uncle sam could say: "oh look, youre poor, lets give you some EIC!" and continue with: "oh wait, we were just kidding, we need this money for the war on OIL. youll have to find another way to feed yourself and pay for those overpriced prescription when you done have insurance." thanks uncle sam!! my reply to you: "GO FUCK YOURSELF YOU PIECE OF SHIT!!!"

ALSO:

im thinking about how to arrange a TV SMASHING event. you know, kind of how hitler held community book burnings, but this would actually effect people positively!

im sure all of my semi-political slashing is making me any friends here, but, you know what?

I DONT GIVE A FUCK. IF YOU DONT LIKE THE FUCK AWAY.

have a good day!

i give up

im just despondent with life today. does anyone know where i can get a lethal dose of heroin?

New Self-Portraits Portfolio

hiya all, so i like to take self-portraits a lot. theyre all over the place, google galleries, my website, randomly on my blog and social networks. ive decieded to place them all together in one large portfolio styled collection. ive been working on getting them all together to edit them into said collections. its far from finshed but here is SNEAK PEAK at the rough draft of the Artist Statement i started typing out for it.... check back soon for more!

I'm Xavier, Photographer, graduate of New England School Of Photography, in Boston, MA. (NESOP). My favorite photographs to take are Self-Portraits. I was classically trained on film (before the digital age), in and out of B&W and Color darkrooms, where the smell of fixer was like perfume. In this new age I've made the switch to digital and, as with all photographers, you're never done learning. My major was Fine Art Color Project. My minors were Fashion and a general intake of Commercial Practices/Classes. In the 7+ years sense my graduation I've waded through many fields of the photography business; my work remains mainly a personal venture that I share on my blogs and social networks.

One project I still continue to develop is my collection of Self-Portraits. The late Tom Petit, my major instructor at NESOP, had two mantras I still put into my photos each time I dust off my camera; "Think Outside The Box" and "Trust In The Process". More than anything he wanted his students to peer inward to explore, experience, and to share, not only the art we were creating but ourselves as well. Each term Self-Portraits were a requirement for his classes. I've been addicted to Self-Portraits since and owe him my gratitude for so generously sharing his wisdom, without which, I wouldn't have finished art school.

So we come to the definition of what a "Self-Portrait" is... Tom's explanation in class for our first assignment was; "I don't care if you throw rocks at your shutter button to take the picture, as long as you take the picture and you are in it!" Other photographers will set up the shot and consent others to wield the camera under their advisement. I play with a mixture of both; feeling that as long my concept is being captured and [part of me] is in the image than I'm only breaking some of the rules. Largely I strive to be alone in this process and prefer to trip the shutter myself, though at times the set up is too much to do it all myself.

As Art is what it is, this definition can be massive grey area open to infinite interpretation of dialog between creator and viewer, the definaition is always being re-written. When "Thinking Outside The Box" that line created by others is easy to bend or reshape. As you proceed forward through my images you'll notice the way I group my images is deliberate to move this line. For myself turning the camera around too photograph myself gets boring so I started building images where I'm the subject in scenarios, concepts (such as songs), and indeed, not always alone. For instants, I started putting other people into my Self-Portraits in a understanding that a person is the sum of their experiences, you are not always alone.

I will briefly outline my concepts around the grouping/edits of this project and, as only I can do, let YOU fill in the rest of the blanks.

Enjoy
Xavier Armand Photography

Rough Outline For Groupings:
• Turning the camera around
• Documentation of being here
• Shadows, Reflections, and Pieces
• Concepts
• Songs
• Along-side others
• For the fun of Art
• ETC (this list is never complete)

Self-Portrait by Sullen Girl

a while ago i started a series of self-portraits with me depicting song lyrics. ive only done a couple of these and today i felt like dusting of the camera while listing to the album Tidal by Fiona Apple. and so was born the self-portrait, Sullen Girl.

new self-portrait.