Digging In The Past

found these self-portraits in a box in the basement. i don't know what to say about them except they're powerful for me... in some sick way...

Sex Toys Rock!!!

"you don't stop playing because you grow old, you grow old because you stop playing!"
-- i can't remember who said this but it fits here sooo we'll go with it.

So i have found a way to bring together my sex addiction and my music addiction!!! and just discovered the best sex toy ever!

its called an "OhMiBod", it's designed to work with your ipod (or any other audio jack output system) and it vibrates to the mid-tone of the music. FUCKING AMAZING!

i highly recommend it. i got the "Naughtinano" design. it's slim, contoured, smooth and conforatable! it brings a whole new meaning to "plug and play". ha

anyway heres a link to their website. check it out and push your limits people!

http://www.ohmibod.com
click there to feel the music!

Song Of The Moment

Drive by Melissa Ferrick.

I'm loving this song. It makes me a little hott! **gasp** i wish i guy would cover it!

LYRICS:

If you want this
if you want this
if you want this, you’re gonna have to ask
nicely please
yeah if you want this
you’re gonna have to ask me
you’re gonna have to ask me

Whatever you want
I’ll give it to you
I’ll give it to you slowly
‘till you’re just begging me to hold you
ya whatever you want
whatever you want
but you’re gonna have to ask me

Your mouth waters
stretched out on my bed
your fingers are trembling
and your heart is heavy and red
and your head is bent back
and your back is arched
my hand is under there
holding you up

I’ll hold you up
and drive you all night
I’ll hold you up
and drive you baby ‘till you feel the daylight
I’ll hold you up
and drive you all night
I’ll hold you up
and drive you ‘till you feel the daylight
that’s right
that’s right

In the kitchen
in the shower
and in the back seat of my car
I’ll hold you up
in your office
preferably during business hours
‘cause you know how I like it when there’s people around
and I know how you like it
yeah I know how you like it
I know how you like it when I tease you for hours

Your mouth waters
stretched out on my bed
your fingers are trembling
and your heart is heavy and red
and your head is bent back
and your back is arched
and my hand is under there
holding you up

I’ll hold you up
and drive you all night
I’ll hold you up
and drive you baby ‘till you feel the daylight
I’ll hold you up
and drive you all night
I’ll hold you up
and drive you ‘till you feel the daylight
oh and this has just begun

Yeah this has just begun
because we haven’t even gotten started yet
I haven’t even
I haven’t even tied you up
I haven’t even turned you over
this is where I want to live
right here between your hips
where all the love you hold and hide
it’s where it lives
right here between your hips
this is where I want to live
it’s where all the love you give exists

Your mouth waters
stretched out on my bed
your fingers are trembling
and your heart is heavy and red
your head is bent back
your back is arched
my hand is under there
holding you up

I’ll hold you up
and drive you all night
I’ll hold you up
and drive you baby ‘till you feel the daylight
I’ll hold you up
and drive you all night
I’ll hold you up
and drive you baby ‘’till you feel the daylight
that’s right
yeah
that’s right
that’s right
that’s right
I’ll hold you up
that’s right
that’s right
I’ll drive you all night

To my fellow queens and their Drama...

Woah, wait a minute - not so quick
You go from zero to ticked off and losing it
Could somebody please tell me what just happened then

Manage to always ruin the mood somehow
Well I'm over combing through the details now
Far too complicated to bother with it

Forgive me if I'm speaking out of turn
But I'm not as young as I used to be
And you live and you learn
Forgive me if I'm pushing on my luck
But I've been through this a million times
And now I have no truck with it

Yeah we all got luggage and we all got scars
But I know for a fact it shouldn't be this hard
I've seen it on Dr Phil, I know all about it

And no I'm not mad, I just don't wanna play
I know the script and I hate that game

lyrics from: No Truck by Kate Miller-Heidke

i've got nothing
to prove this time
just something
to show you

. . .

i wander the halls, along the walls, and under my breathe i say to myself i need fuel to take a flight

HYPOCRISY

couldn't of put it better myself, should be an american child and signs in this picture thou.

Song Of The Moment

(the great depression edition)

So the summer is over, and it was pretty much a waste. thats why i havent update much. so anyway as i always say: "bitching does no good cause it dosent change anything" so i shut up now and revile my song of the moment. it seems to ring a nice bell with my current situations.

32 Flavors by Ani Difranco

Lyrics:

squint your eyes and look closer
i'm not between you and your ambition
i am a poster girl with no poster
i am thirty-two flavors and then some
and i'm beyond your peripheral vision
so you might want to turn your head
cause someday you're going to get hungry
and eat most of the words you just said

both my parents taught me about good will
and i have done well by their names
just the kindness i've lavished on strangers
is more than i can explain
still there's many who've turned out their porch lights
just so i would think they were not home
and hid in the dark of their windows
till i'd passed and left them alone

and god help you if you are an ugly girl
course too pretty is also your doom
cause everyone harbors a secret hatred
for the prettiest girl in the room
and god help you if you are a phoenix
and you dare to rise up from the ash
a thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy
while you are just flying past

i'm not trying to give my life meaning
by demeaning you
and i would like to state for the record
i did everything that i could do
i'm not saying that i'm a saint
i just don't want to live that way
no, i will never be a saint
but i will always say

squint your eyes and look closer
i'm not between you and your ambition
i am a poster girl with no poster
i am thirty-two flavors and then some
and i'm beyond your peripheral vision
so you might want to turn your head
cause someday you might find you're starving
and eating all of the words you said