Song of the Moment

long time no post....

Damaged by Plumb

Dreaming comes so easily
'Cause it's all that I've known
True love is a fairy tale
I'm damaged, so how would I know?

I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm ashamed
And I need for you to know

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

Healing comes so painfully
And it chills to the bone
Will anyone get close to me?
I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know

Im scared and
i'm alone
im ashamed and
i need for you to know

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

There's mending for my soul
An ending to this fear
Forgiveness for a man who was stronger
I was just a little girl, but I can't go back

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

i cant go back...
i cant go back...
i must go on...
i must go on...

a poorly made fan video, dont watch it, just listen.

If I Haven't Offended You Yet....

...I Hope This Does IT!!!!!

i think this my, new, most favorite song ever!

The Tiger Lillies - Banging In The Nails

Click play to listen!

LYRICS:

I'm crucifying Jesus, banging in the nails,
And I am so happy, because old Jesus failed.
I'm crucifying Jesus, nail him to the cross,
The poor old bastard bleeds to death and I don't give a toss.

I'm bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang,
banging in the nails.

I'm bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang,
banging in the nails.

I'm bang, bang, bang, bang,
banging in the nails.

I'm bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang,
banging in the nails.

I'm crucifying Jesus, in my piss he bathes.
I think I am a pervert, I think I am depraved
I'm crucifying Jesus, beat him to a pulp,
I stick my organ in his mouth and on it he must gulp.

I'm bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang,
banging in the nails.

I'm bang, bang, bang, bang,
banging in the nails.

I'm bang, bang, bang, bang,
banging in the nails.

I'm bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang,
banging in the nails.

You see that crown of thorns upon his head?
Well that was my idea.
I think I might be going to hell,
Oh dear!

I'm bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang,
banging in the nails.

I'm bang, bang, bang, bang,
banging in the nails.

I'm bang, bang, bang, bang,
banging in the nails.

I'm bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang,
banging in the nails.

Mainstream-O-meter

this is my mainstream music statistic based on the top plays in my music library from the past year. i'm quiet proud at how low this number is!

New Years Resolution

OK OK, I KNOW, im about 3 months late posting my NYR, sorry, im a flake.

so as it is, my NYR was to let my hair grow long again! for those of you who knew me as a teenage remember i had hair just past my shoulders and then when i was 17 i let a friend cut it all off! and that was it. i could never stand to let it grow to the lengeth it was before.

every time i tried to let it grow back out itd get to be a couple/few inches long and it turns into a big mess of a poofy ball that i cant do anything with. so i get pissed and shave it off, bleach it yellow and start over!

so i havent shaved my head sense new years and its all big and poofy cause its not heavy enough yet to pull it down flat. theres too much of it to put product in and have it look good. so i have to wear a hat all the time cause ITS FUCKING PISSING ME OFF and I WANT TO SHAVE IT!

but no i cant yet. patience was never one of my values.

but in any case, im still working on my NYR, how are you doing with yours?

PS. I don’t make serious NYR anymore. They silly when you think about them; You set a historical date and use it as an excuse to better yourself? If theres something you really want to do and/or change regarding yourself. Have the substance with yourself to do it any day of the year. Just because the day is Jan 1 dosent mean your chances of quiting smokeing are any better if you don’t work at it.

heres a pic of me when i was about 15/16. this is early long hair stages. later is was 3 Xs this length. this is kinda where i want to get to this year.

Can't Have It All (Jay Brannan)

i really like this song so im following the request...



cant have it all
music and lyrics by jay brannan

applying moisturizer in the microwave window
for the tenth time, he shouldve called me an hour ago
would he be here with flowers if i lived in arizona?

they say theres no love left in the big cities, its kinda true
i guess youll find me coming soon to a small town near you
ill sell my guitar so i can by myself a tractor

fuck this, this cant be my life
i moisturized ten times tonight
why cant i sit down and write,
bring this question to light?

chorus
do you want a lover, or do you want a life?
one hand or the other, the butter or the bread knife?
do you choose winter, spring, summer, or fall?
its driving me crazy that i cant have it all

if these walls could talk, theyd probably cry out for mercy
til im outlined in chalk, ill be romantically thirsty
so i drink and drink from the proverbial time sink

fuck this, this cant be my life
tears flowing in full force tonight
why cant i sit down and write,
bring this question to light?

chorus

do we hold the future, or does it come in peace?
and if its in my hands, are you sure it should be in brittle hands like these?
life, love, and the pursuit of all the things they promised me
can i have all of the above? are the best things in life truly free?

chorus

© 2008 great depression publishing

midnight songs...

one of my own.... just some drool that fell out of my ear...

i want to stay up late
listening to sad music
hearing the rain drip on the sill
and watching the fog
drift past the darkened street lights

than i have an idea that
this only works for me

sing me a song where
hope is not the refrain
sing me a song where
i know this is the life i live
sing me a song that lets me know
that i am okay