in the night...

... i want to say something
but
nothing comes...

from the bordem comes...

You are a NEGOTIATOR/explorer

You are a big thinker. You easily take the large, long view of almost any topic. You are comfortable juggling myriad facts. You tend to synthesize material easily and to think in webs of factors, not straight lines. You are imaginative and enjoy theorizing.

You are also socially savvy. You are good at both talking and listening. And you generally read people's faces, body postures and tone of voice accurately, so you tend to intuitively understand what people want and need.

You are also highly compassionate. You care deeply about others. So you sometimes make personal sacrifices to be a supportive friend or colleague. And you like to work to improve the world.

You enjoy new ideas and novel experiences. You are flexible, affable and open to adventure. And you admire impulsive, spontaneous people, despite your tendency to plan ahead.

You dislike conflict. You seek "win-win" solutions. And with your skill as a negotiator, you adeptly bring peace to the chaotic world around you. You are a warm, insightful and often exciting companion.

How your personality breaks out
Explorer - 27% of your personality Known for high energy, high creativity and spontaneity. Seeks novelty, risk and pleasure. Intellectually curious and not easily swayed by opinion.
Builder - 21% of your personality Usually very popular. Deep attachment to home and family. Calm demeanor and low anxiety. Often consistent, loyal and protective.
Negotiator - 28% of your personality Excels at seeing the big picture, long-term planning and consensus building. An intuitive thinker who is flexible, verbal and socially skilled. Imaginative, empathetic and nurturing.
Director - 22% of your personality Daring, original, direct and inventive. A non-conformist. Skilled at abstract thinking and short-term planning. Often assertive and quite competitive. Tough-minded and efficient.

Stay Stupid America

so lucky

im so lucky, my life is a fairy tail that i couldnt even dream up...

what did you say???

could you repeat that? sorry, i have hearing loss.

too many LOUD rock concerts and night clubs.

Song Of The Moment

it's all wrong but it's all right by dolly parton

Hello are you free tonight I like your looks I love your smile
Could I use you for a while it's all wrong but it's all right
The amber sunset glow has died my needs're very much alive
Is it okay if I stop by it's all wrong but it's all right
It's all wrong but it's all right just close your eyes and hold me tight
Tell me sexy lovin' lines it's all wrong but it's all right

It may be wrong if we make love but I just need someone so much
And who knows it might last for life it's all wrong but it's all right
It's all wrong but it's all right...
It's all wrong but it's all right just close your eyes and fantasize
Tell me sexy lovin' lines it's all wrong but it's all right
It's all wrong but it's all right...

oh my me...

living at home is so difficult!

pointlessness

i want somebody who sees the pointlessness
and still keeps their purpose in mind

i want somebody who has a tortured soul
some of the time
i want somebody who will either put out for me
or put me out of my misery
or maybe just put it all to words
and make me go, you know
i never heard it put that way
make me say, what did you just say?
i want somebody who can hold my interest
hold it and never let it fall
someone who can flatten me with a kiss
that hits like a fist
or a sentence, that stops me like a brick wall
i'm tired of being the interesting one
i'm tired of having fun for two
just lay yourself on the line
and i might lay myself down by you
but don't sit behind your eyes
and wait for me to surprise you
i want somebody who can make me
scream until it's funny
i want someone who's not afraid of me
or anyone else
in other words i want someone
who's not afraid of themselves

bi-polor

round n round
up n down
round n round
up n down
this i can deal with
the anxiety needs
to go away